Just now I heard a news which stated that an S.D.M. has been killed brutally .Suddenly I went through a cavalcade of flashbacks of such cases .One such case was that of Pratapgarh,U.P. where a D.S.P was murdered and daily we see his wife on various news channels in a pitiable yet spirited condition fighting against the black works of the “bold” and the socially stronger people in terms of violence and a salaried self-army .Another case was from M.P. where an I.P.S. officer was killed because he was doing his duty and tried to stop the illegal mining in his posted district. And there was yet another fresh case of an engineer Shashank yadav being allegedly killed as he was supporting the C.B.I. with some documents against some people who had done a Rs.2000 crore scam.The young engineer is a son of my father’s colleague .All such cases compelled me to contemplate upon a thought.The thought was-Did they work so hard to get into the public service to see such an end to their lives????????????Did they sacrifice their nights in studying and doing hard work so as to see such an end to their desires and aims.??????Did they go through those sleepless nights to see their parents lamenting on their dead bodies..?????????Did they desire all through their lives to serve for the people to see this foul and appalling day…?????????At least I don’t think that they wished all this..At least I who is one of those who has planned to go through these sleepless nights to work hard and serve for my people have not thought ever of this..I agree with the thought that a death for the people and for the country is a great honor in itself and that is the reason why we salute the “SHAHEEDS” but even after our honorary death if we do not receive justice and see such brutal, bad and social evils moving around freely ,it really hurts a lot ..It hurts no where physically but somewhere mentally and philosophically so sharply that sometimes we try to give up and I know that giving up is not an option.But the thought to ponder upon is that do we, young minds work so hard to see such a brutal end to our lives..?????I was stuck in a quagmire whether to work so hard to receive such an end to my life(maybe) or not???Well, I decided to go ahead and fight against such evils which are deeply rooted in our social framework.BUT still there is a voice which is maybe sad and angry which is a barrier in my way yet I have resolved and am determined to serve my people no matter even if I have to sacrifice my life in this noble cause.